An adumbration of abundance - V

15th march:

"you know ayan i have written something to post in my blog..but I dont know the things required for it..can u help me "
it was 9pm and ritti as usual was chatting with ayan..during this time most of the days she chats and obviously when ayan is online she rarely gets time to type even a 'hello' to anybody else...
"ok!!just gimme your pass and id ..will do it for you" ayan replied back
while ritti was typing the pass mainak called..and ritti went to pick up his call..as she thought that for some minutes ayan will be busy doing the blogs things for her...
she was busy gibbering with mainak when suddenly a message came to her cell..
It read "i got to know many things about you..never thought you are like this"
ritti was flummoxed for a second..and within a couple of secs ..she became clear about it
her id and pass were the same as that of the gtalk...and ayan have read the chats regarding him with mainak...
"omg!!did he also came to knw about her affair with mainak? oh god!! what will happen now?"
she was kinda perplexd..didnt knew what to do...the first thing she did was to change her password...but things never goes right when they are ought to.. she was so baffled that she couldnot log in...on the other hand her cell phone was flooded with ayan's messages...she was too afraid to even open it...she switched off her cell...and called mainak from her landphone...and vented out the whole thing..tears rooled down her eyes ...its just not beacuse she is sad about the whole thing..but she is feeling damn angry with herself..how could she ever make a mistake like that?...even mainak was shocked..."are you so dumb..you gave your pass to him?you think him a fool??even i dont know your pass and you gave it to a stranger?how??"
"stop ragging me...and think of a solution?what will i do now???i dont think he will ever talk with me...he got to know about us too" ritti was about to burst into tears
"arey dont cry...look you know na that u are not guilty at your heart?then why are you taking the whole blame to urself..and this day was about to some someday..how can you hold a truth?dont worry he wont stop talking to you..i will talk to him tommorrow...we are going to meet na tommorrow...?"and mainak kept the phone....
ritti couldnot get a wink of sleep and she was trying hard to get bck her password so that she could atleast see those chats....what she culd recall is that some days ago she showed mainak some chats of hers with ayan....and to lighten the situation they made it look like a joke...mainka only started it..because he knew that at her heart ritti is only thinking about ayan's propose..he knew how much seriously she has taken it....so just to lighten it up they did..but ayan will never get to know that....
riiti really felt worse..she couldnot even switch on her cell..she has no problem with ayan knowing about her affair...but the thing is what it he stops talking to her after that?
no..she cant bear that...tears rolled down her eyes....actually she was trying hard not to have any feelings for ayan..she knew its not right...mainak is a very nice guy..why?she have no right to hurt him...whoa!!so many thoughts..and that stupid ayan thinks that he is at the gunpoint....all these thought crowded her mind and she didnt knew when she fell asleep...

An adumbration of abundance - IV

7th march:

"can you meet me after college today?"a message appeared on Ritti's cell's screen as she got ready to get out from college to meet Mainak...three months before in this day he propose dher and they planned to spend this day in a special way....but how can she say this reason?

"no re..i have classes till 5pm..cant meet you today...you better go home ..will meet some other day"Ritti texted back..she had no other option...

"okie!!no problem..i also have some work hope i will finish within 5 pm..then we can come home together" Ayan texted back..

Ritti releived..in 5pm again she will make and say something...she have to hurry now Mainak msut be waiting for her...

"you know Ayan texted me to meet me after college...i made up some story of lab..you know Mainak sometimes am afraid that what will happen if someday he comes to know about this whole affair..he will probably kill me re...because he is very short tempered "

"dont worry honey!!am with you na? we will solve it" Mainak tried to relieve Ritti…Though Ritti was not much convinced… she was thinking that what will happen if Ayan calls up again....

she was right too...Ayan called up again at 5 pm.."your college got over I guess am waiting at .....place at 7pm"and he kept the phone..

"who called Ayan?"

"yep!!anyways am not feeling much well re..i think we should go home now" Ritti uttered..but actually more than being late she was tired to saying lies to Ayan..so its better that she gets to that place and meet him

"okie!!i will drop you" Mainak said..he was willing to spend more time with Ritti...he knew that Ritti is kinda worried about this all Ayan affair..but he is helpless. He cant help from any point...now a days he feels that is was better if Ayan knew about it beforehand..atleast this problems could have been occluded..but its too late..the way Ritti has told him about Ayan..it seems he will never keep any contact with her..and it will hut Ritti a lot...cause its quite obvious from Ritti's behaviour that she likes Ayan a lot....as he knows that Ritti too likes meeting him and talking to him...though Mainak feels a little covetous about it..but as it makes Ritti happy he has no problem about it....

An adumbration of abundance - III

4th march:

"maa!!!i have my infosys training today!!!" Ritti said lazily while her mom came to her room to iron her clothes

"okie!!! take ur tiffing..dont have foods from outside"

Ritti laughed at her mind...hehe infosys is such a blessing...god knows whre will my mom send me if she ever comes to know that most of the infosys training she had was in victoria n malls with her boyfriend...

"wow!!never thought trainings can se so interesting" Ritti thought and took out a white top dress from the cupboard

she was getting ready when Ayan texted"dont get out of the house today...its so much hot outside"

this thing of Ayan attracts Ritti most...his caring attitude...her small things makes him tensed...anyways she discarded the thought n texted back "i will be at home only..best of lck for your exam"

she hated this lieing but what can she do?already Ayan told her to meet him but then seeing the weather told her to stay home only...now if she tells the truth about her meeting with Mainak..it will hurt Ayan...so better a lie than hurting him....n Ritti got ready

Mainak was already waiting for her to come....while having food Mainak asked "so what you did about him?thought about anything?"

"na re!!cant think of anything...he will get damn angry if i tell him the truth...but atleast i have to find a reason to tell tim "no" so that things doesnot get worstened..."

"tell him you arenot ready for any relationship now"

"but what if he wiats untill i get ready?" then after thinking a little said again"well i think yoy are right i dont thinks he has such strong feelings that he will wait for me!!!"

"hmm!!or else there is another way" Mainak winked as he said"find a girl for him"

"Mainak!!!i will find somone for him...he will tharsh me re...and by the way he is such a angry fellow that i think 10 times before saying anything to him..dont yoy remebrg how he got angry when some days ago i played a joke on his proposing a girl and getting a 'no'??"

suddenly the phone vibrated"where are you now?can u meet me near my place in the evening"

Ayan...

giving a look at Mainak,Ritti quickly typed"am now at home...okie will try to come"

"i have to go home now re..its already 5" Ritti said

"so early?ok..will drop you at home"

"no re!!i can manage alone" and Ritti took a bus to Ayan's place..

as soon as she got yup she saw Ayan already there...Ayan was looking at her..she kinda felt uneasy

"once a guy starts liking a girl..things are never same again"

and for the first time she felt it....really its not the same person she is knows..something has changed...she couldnot make out that whether its her....or Ayan..or the relation between them...but something isnot same....she felt a little inept while walking with him and taking a bus to a quiet place....

when walking thorugh the quiet place Ayan for the first time held Ritti's hand...and she felt empty again...but she was kinda releived when Ayan started talking about insouciant things like about scholl stuffs ..and every time he paused Ritti was afriad of some"so what you thought about it?"...after walking for some time....they started walking towards home...Ritti was about to take an auto to home...when Ayan again held her hand and said"its already 3 days and i havenot got any answer"....

"umm err...what answer re?" Ritti tried her best to act innocent...but that was really obtuse...

"dont act so dumb..u arenot so...look!!you dont know thorough what am going...even if its a 'no' then blurt it out ...it seems as if am at a gunpoint and u r holding the gun..its upto you whther you will shoot me or give me my life"

"Wish I was in the gunpoint instead of you...coz neither can I shoot nor can give you life" Ritti thought…but managed to say "don’t worry will give you the answer after your semester exams" and took an auto before Ayan could say anything more

thats another fault of Ritti..she thinks that taking more time will save her from the situation...but little did she understand that its only for the time being....

"He held my hand today" Ritti was a little weird while saying it to Mainak

"Umm...gotcha....by the way you are you so late?"

Mainak sounded a little angry while talking...because Ritti came early from date saying that she is getting late for home and its 9pm already and she havnt reached home yet and not only that during this time she havnt picked up any call from him...so there was enough reason for him to get angry about...but very rare he shows his anger and possesiveness...actually he feels little afraid..its that Ritti broke up from her previous relationship only because the guy was too much possesive...and he was too afraid to lose her...

Ritti can sense it to...but she shams as if she havnt....actually she herself is a lot possesive...but when it comes expressing she acts as if nothing has happened and she is very cool about it...but at heart she isn’t...and so when somone else expresses she gets angry...why cant someone gives enough space to other....?so she tried to talk about something nice and soon they were laughing and talking about something else........

An adumbration of abundance - II

"hullo!!!i called you so many times..what happned whre are you??"Mainak was little tensed as it was already 9pm...
"you cant beleive what happenned today..i still cant beleive..."Ritti uttered in little trembling voice
"what hapepned jaanu?you havnt yet reached home?what were you doing?"
"am still so shocked....i mean..can you guess waht happned today?"
"what??atleast tell the topic..or regarding whom?"
"dumbo!!obviously regarding Ayan re....i was with him..so..."
"ummm!!he proposed you...."
"omg!!how u managed to guess?was it a wild one??how do you know?ya..he did"
"didnt i told you 20 days ago that he is gonna propose you...i know the phsycology of guys..no guys will tell you to meet him so ardently unless he has something for you...."
Mainak is never short of his "muft ka gyaans"..unaware of the fact that...the only words Ritti can hear is "i have fallen for you"..whoa!!why did he never thought of it...well its not that she she is totally unaware of the fact...some behaviours were little weird..atleast she felt so...but whenever those thoughts bugged her she used to ignore them....though very often Mainak used to talk about it....according to Ritti...those odd behaviours of Ayan was nothing unusual..actually Ayan told her that he is very frank when it comes to girls....so whenever Ayan used to call her...she thought its just a friendly meeting...nothing more...otheriwse she is not so fool..Ayan is not tha first guy who prposed her...even in case of Mainak she came to know about it long before...because Mainak used to parise her a lot...n way he used to talk it wasnot a big deal to undersatnd..but in this case she totally proved wrong....the whole bus she was thinking of this only...
"hullo are you listening?..ummm..thinking about Ayan?"Mainak teased
"why should i be thinking about him....anyways i have to get up from the bus now..will call u later"..Ritti was so shy to admit...

Ayan himself was very uneasy....proposing isnot so easy..atleast for him...actually he was kinda feeling bad thinking that this proposal did made Ritti a little tensed....so after coming home the first thing he did was to text Ritti asking sorry for making her tensed....
but Ritti was feeling very sad....because she knew that she cant say "yes"...and not even a "no"...because she knows that Ayan will never talk to her again...Ayan has told her lot of times that he feels once a guy or a girle develops some feelings for anpther girl or guy..n the other doesnot reciprocate the same...they can never be friends again...because whenevr they will see each other those thoughts will come....
"what will I do now??"
she was thinking while lying alone in her bed...nad soon felt asleep....

An adumbration of abundance - I

Rittija was very tensed…..generally she is cool types…unless its her result coming out…but this time it was not her result which bugged her…..its that she had to go with her mom to buy some clothes for her sister’s wedding. Who is getting married next week…so there wasn’t much time left for shopping…but the problem is she also promised her friend Riya to go to the latest café in the locality…that’s the problem with Rittija...She can’t say no directly. The thing which comes to her mind that…a “no” may make her friend angry…so at the last moment when Riya was continuously n frantically calling her up in her cell...Ritti decided not even to pick up her call…at last Riya being totally mad at her stopped calling n gave a sms”y aren’t you picking up my call? Will u go? ” still Ritti dint picked up the call…in her mind she was making some lie to make it up...she decided that after reaching home she will say to Riya that she was feeling ill...and so she kept the phone aside…n so she did after coming home…Riya as usual got that she is telling lie…

Well that’s the problem with Ritti...she cant reject people…though she knows due to this quality of hers she invites lotta problems….things which could be handled very easily were made very complicated by this character… and the things that she never feel any kind of regret due to this…and the main purpose of doing this things that is not to hurt friends is not served most of the times….but she didn’t realize that one day this thing of hers will drag her to some night mare she had ever thought of…

1st march:

It was a hot and humid morning’s Ritti was lying idly in her bed…her mom called her three times before to get ready for college…but she was not all in mood of going to college...its not that she doesn’t love going to college but the thing is today she had a plan of meeting a friend in the evening and she was supposed to go from college only. but after a whole tiresome day in college she will feel very tired…so she thought to not going to college….her mom left for office after some time…n she got up n had some food…the guy she is going to meet is a school friend of hers…they lost touch in the middle after Ritti got shifted to a new school’s they again got in tough through a social networking site. and recently they have started seeing each other a lot….its not that Ritti harbors some special feelings for him….she already have a boyfriend…but Ritti loves meeting this guy Ayan cause of his jolly nature….most of the time Ayan only speaks n Ritti only laughs…Ritti haven’t told this guy about her boyfriend. Its not that she is shy. thing is even her boyfriend Maniac isn’t quite comfortable with it….and moreover Ritti thought that it isn’t a important thing to disclose…Ritti got ready within time n called up and said Ayan that she will be on time...but as usual in the last moment she forgot to lock the door and came back…n when she reached the place she was 30 minutes late…but Ayan was happily waiting for her….as soon as they got into an auto Ayan said “it’s the first time I am seeing you in something trendy”

Whoa!!thats not true…Ritti is always well dressed..Atleast that’s what Ritti thinks…whatever….they got up from the auto n started to walk. Suddenly in midst of the crowd Ayan held her hand…at first she felt kinda weird but then she got easy with it….they went to a restaurant and ordered some food….after having they stared walking though a quiet lane…n aya was suddenly very quiet..Ritti felt uneasy n don’t know why her sixth sense tingled…after a pause of some seconds Ayan started to say “I have to confess something to you…n after a certain pause came the following..I have fallen for you”..Ritti suddenly felt something empty…as if a chill ran through her spine…and no words seemed appropriate to say anything…..the only thing she could manage to say was “I never came to this place before”…she knew whatever she is saying is utter dumb….but its better than to say nothing at all…



And soon they started gibbering about school stuffs..may be both of them wanted to feel uneasy...as soon as Ayan got up from the bus the first thing Ritti did was to take out the cell phone from her pocket n calll Mainak..there were already some missed calls from him...but Ritti generally dont take any call from Mainak or read his messages in front of Ayan..she hardly takes out her cell phone in case Ayan gets to know about their relation....its not that Ritti is afraid to tell about it....she had a relation before too..n there was hardly ne friends of hers who didnt knew about it....it was Mainak himself who told her not to tell anyone about the things..actually he is a shy kind off guy and all friends talking about his girlfriend and teasing him makes him feel uneasy....

The memoirs of a Wonderland

This Saturday..i,e 11th april was a funday…:D..unlike other day I got up 7:30 in the moning n chcked mah cell watch twice[it was bad for my reputation..lolz]…coz for other days its 10:30am.reason was “baishakhi bash” in mani sq…n whre it comes to going out wid frnds n that too for grabing n biting..[foods off course..:P]am alwaz ready…so widin 1 hour I was ready completing mah bath..breakfast n all…the problem arised while selecting mah dress..i always have prob wid this specially when my mom isnt around there to decide for me…after trying lotta tops…n finally selecting a black one…I remembered that I told mah mom with a damn serious tone..”I have a campus connect programme today in my college”..n wearing a nice top will make her suspect…so…chose another black top…wich is as plain as anything…J..but when I reached sakherbazar to meet my aother two frnds I was more dan just ashamed..wow…it seemed that they were too eager to go n am kinda dragged with little or perhaps no intention of going…L..watever then came the next prob..thats finding a bus to go..since they never went to mani sq..[I went two times before]it wasn’t a prob..atleast dats wat I thot…:Pso went to the bus depot n then took to bus to chingrihata..n thot dat after dat wen will take a bus to mani sq directly…in the way a frnd joined us..we were four in together me..sremoyee,sankha n madhuka…widin 1:15 pm we were on the floor of al the attention…:P..after waitng n the long queue ,oogling guys for 25 mins we got ur card..:P..n wow..the whole hall was flooding with foods…”uff era j keno eto khai?”..”kom daam bole sobai khete chale eseche”..were usual one liners..lil did the realize dat they are also one of them in the lot they are referring too..:P..after fighting with the “bhukhas” in the counter we took four chicken buckets in 24 bucks..only to find that we don’t have a seat to “sit”..after trying a lot by oogling at peoples while they are eating in watery puppy eyes..or asking them..”is neone sitting ova here?”..finally we chose our victims…at one end acouple was sitting…the girl seems too innocent n completely unware of the unavailability of seats..n with serene eyes she was waitng for her bf to come with foods…n two seats were vacant beside her..n took them..n kept our plate..seeing us four she guessed I think dat we were damn angry carrying those chicken buckets n not getting a chance to grab them..arggh…she made us space to keep the plate..n slowly n stdilay we pused her on one side.n made urself widin dat space…her bf came after 5 mins carrying some ice-cream…n was shocked like anything wid the complete change of scenario..with fiery eyes he first glanced us n then his gf..n widin 10 mins they completed n “chalta bana”..n meanwhile sreem n sankha kept on dumping foods on the table..n went again collecting them…n me n madhuka was in front of them..evry people who crossed the table…first gave a look to the table..n then us..think us insane..coz it was out of their domain of thinking that how will two gals manage them..n ten why are they looking at them…:P
It was damn embarrassing for me…whatever we completed them quite fast..:D
Then after ghanving food..it was time to test ur nerves…well I had no doubt bout the strength of mine..coz am too sure bout it..but those mororns wernt…so they were too eager to visist “ the scary house”..n mah constant persuasion like”ogulo boka boka jinish giye ki hobe bol?..tar theke chal carzy house e jai..”..were in vain..n they bought four ticket…tankfully madhuka had more or less the same kinda nerves I had..so it was decided that those two cowards sankah n sreemoyee will stay wid us..so sankha was left with me..n sremoyee with madhuka…n as theywere too afraid to enter there…me wid sankha tok the first step..n shit it was dark like hell over there…n I cudnt see a single thing except a skeleton wid blood shedding from his teeth.. and as soon as we were climbing some stairs he came to mah shoulder..n after wat I did..i bet it was his last venture…[I bet u pple can guess now]..firstly I was scared like anything n upon that sankha was dragging me like his luggage and someone from behind was in desperate need of mahself n as both of the hands were around sankha’s she took the help of mah top n soon I felt dat even if I come out of this palce safely..mah top wont..n coming out topless was the last thing I ever dreamed of..so I told ”sankha ashte hath…”…n someone came to mah ears n repeated it…again wat I did made him deaf I guess…wont dare to play such nasty pranks again with someone…evry second seemed hours to me..but little did I realize dat the main thing is left..while coming out a bed wid a skeleton sitting came towards us..n sreemoyee gave scream wich made me white…was numb for a second. Then ran n came out like anything…*phew*…after seeing mah face..some people were so convinced that they left the queue..but some couples mainly tha guys dragged their gf..[gfs who were like me]towards the queue..[no credit for guessing the reason];)
Well…mah heart was beating fast n so we went to a earring shop to ease things out…earrings alwaaz fascinates me..evry night I dream that some night when all will be in deep slumber I will steal all the nice earrings from these kinda stores..watever earrings made me forget…but it was too shamefull for sankha coz we were dragging him to evry knda girly shops like..pepe jeans..nick nish n all…n he was relieved I guess when he found two of his frnds over there..they were girls too..but still atleast for the sake of them we went to starmark…we came out from mani sq after 15 mins..n I decided prudly dat since lotta time is left we will spend sometime like 30 mins in swavhumi..n made them walk for 20 mins…after some time a thought came to may mind that last time while I came it dint took more than 10 mins to reach mani sq from swabhumi…n as soon as this thought came I visualized dat it aint the same road we went..n as soon I I realized it..i thought that if I confess it…arggh….so I tried to makde it up by saying dat swabhumi is much far way form this place if we go now..we might get late..better we will come some other day..but they wernt convinced n sankha asked a guy bout it..n he said”swabhumi..shey toh anek agey ei rashta e keno?”..before sankha turned around his head I was far away from his range…whatever then we took a bus C18!!!!!for tollygunje..
As soon as I saw the name..i tried to deviate their attention..from it..but it was too late…I was again caught…n again this time also it was none but sankha..grrrrr…wanted to kill him..he said” do ya know in wich bus we are?”..n I already know the consequences…arghhh…

The tiring journey ended for that day. the chain of events; patient expectations, tension in reaching, amorous intentions, frantic appetite, dreadful experiences and at last a confusion with a scorn from my friends…..all together the reel of varicoloured incidents finally curtained with me taking an auto back to my house, ending a wonderful venture….together a reel of wonderful experiences, leaving behind a scar of redolent memories…...imperishable, unforgettable